It’s 11:04 pm, and I’m sitting here working on a grant proposal for Beacon with a glass of wine in my hand. I got to work at 6:30 this morning, worked at Beacon until 4:30, scouted our possible next opponent until 7:00. Got home, caught up with Kat for a while, made some calls, watched West Wing, and then I got back to work.

So I was sitting here typing and — admittedly — IMing with a friend about special education policies (I am a geek, I know), and I was just generally starting to stress about how much work I have to do, when Michelle Shocked’s Anchorage came on. It’s always been one of my favorite songs; the wistfulness of lost youth and the sadness about divergant paths that life can take has always resonated with me.

I remember hearing this song one time as I was driving down Edgewood Road in Yardley, home for some college break or another, and I was just so struck by it that I had to just pull over and let the song affect me. It’s just one of those songs… and sitting here with too much work to do, it was just the right song to hear right now.

So, I haven’t been a good blogger lately. Part of it has been just generally being tired, and not feeling like I’ve had a ton to say. I never wanted this to be a purely vanity blog — I wanted to write about education, but I’ve managed to avoid that a lot. The election certainly kept me busy all fall, and like a lot of other folks I’ve spoken to, I’ve felt a need to step away for a while just to recover from the burnout.

And yes, I could just post new Jakob stories every day, but again, this wasn’t supposed to be a vanity blog.

Some of the problem is that my view from the classroom has changed. I’m doing much more administrative work, and more of the administrative assistant work, and I’m pretty sure that no one out there wants to read scintillating posts about ways to manage human resources and data management more efficiently. Nor am I sure that I’m being more efficient anyway. The guidance work I’m doing more of is, obviously, hard to write about in anything but the most soaring of generalities. So, I think I’ve got to figure out where I want to take this blog so that it’s still interesting to me and to the three or four other folks out there who actually read this.

Mostly, though, I’ve been in my own head a lot, and I’m not sure how much of any of that is blog-worthy. I think I’ve got some education-posts roaming around in my head, and I hope to use some of next week to re-energize my blogging.

Thanks for sticking with me.

I would say Jakob has a pretty good hammer grip already!